It’s been too long and I’m lost without you
It has now been over 3 weeks since I have been on a bike. Friends, I am not doing well.
Seriously. I count on my cycling for so many things- to see the world, feel the breeze, connect with my city. Most importantly (right now, at least), it keeps my anxiety and OCD under control. Yes, I have pretty severe OCD and mild anxiety. The details aren’t necessary (no, I don’t wash my hands or lock doors if you are wondering), but since I have been riding it has all been handled.
Now I am worrying all the time and frankly, can be kind of a mess lately. My emotions are all over the place and I am feeling antsy. The first week I did too much and now have to use a crutch and go see a specialist because it is not healing. Boo.
It is incredible how much you count on the cardio and release of cycling when you use it for transportation reasons. I don’t go on training rides or think “I am going to work out on the bike today”, I just go.
Boy oh boy, do I want to just go these days.
Because I have to do something to keep me occupied, besides watching too much Netflix and working 60 hours a week, I have started crafting a TON more. I even started a crafty blog, Staying just ahead of the madness! Check it out if you are so inclined. If you like crafty cyclists, also check out Knitting Lemonade, a new friend.
Thanks for the well wishes and I hope to see you on the roads soon.