May 30, 2009

I need a little place in the sun sometimes or I think I will die

By Elisa | 5 Comments »

Hello friends,
so sorry it has been so long since I last posted. Life has been completely kicking my ass and this little blog has taken a backseat. which sucks, because writing is one of the things that calms me the most.

Lately, I have been thinking about how it was only a little over a year ago that I bought my first bike. Since then I have been through 4 bikes and am more in love with riding my bike than I am with my…well, pretty much anything.

Some of you may have followed the blog that Bike Skirt was spun from, Triathablog. I was re-reading some of my posts from that time and came across this one. It is still true and yet I think of how far I have come since that time. I have been pretty stressed and down yesterday and find that if I don’t ride, I feel significantly worse. Just as I said in that post, when I was a new rider, so excited and new to the sport and the life. I had just gotten Mick Jagger and was so in love. (sad)

So…I thought I would share it. Enjoy!

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Mother’s Little Helper
I know that lately I haven’t really been getting too personal. I have been waxing poetically about my wonderful commute and extolling the wonders of bike websites. Well, tonight I change that.

I have depression and OCD. Take a moment to register your shock or laugh at the obviousness of that statement. Ok, done? I am also coming on the anniversary of a pretty tragic event in my life, and my job is so stressful that I leave with a tension headache every other day. I would expect to be a complete wreck, crying all the time or numbing out completely.

Strangely that has not been the case. At first, I thought I was not dealing, or must be avoiding issues. Then I realized that nothing lately has really thrown me for a loop. It stopped about 2 months ago. Right about the time I started riding pretty seriously. Coincidence? I doubt it. I feel great and so hopeful. My insomnia has all but disappeared and I find myself with more energy than I have ever had. I have never had such a great body image. I simply feel great.

THAT is the best part of cycling for me. It has been a scary thing, throwing myself into a sport and an established (male-dominated) community. A year ago this would have thrown me into paralyzing fear and insecurity. Instead, I am so excited and full of hope. I look forward to my next ride and find myself hoping that I can ride to wherever my destination may be (concert, party, grocery store, church…).

Is this from the support I have found in friends and fellow riders, or the actual riding? I think it is a bit of both. Either way, I am so grateful. Yes, life is hard and some things are hard to accept, but everything feels a little bit easier on my bike.

On another note, Mick Jaggar is so sexy right now. New blue tires and white bar tape. If my bike were a person, I would have a mad crush on it. Picture to come.
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Looking back is so fun. it also shows me that this is no passing phase…my two wheeled life is here to stay.

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  1. On May 31st, 2009 welshcyclist said:

    That’s exactly how my bike commute affected me, my lifestyle, and my body image of myseld also. Cycling must be extremely good for us humans.

  2. On May 31st, 2009 MamaVee said:

    nice.

    I've been feeling really happy. Really good. Almost the best I have been in years, probably since the last time I spent most of my free time doing outdoor athletics ( in fact I remember sitting in a kayak 7 years ago feeling like the luckiest person in the world. )

    i think the connection is clear.

  3. On May 31st, 2009 Palm Beach Bike tours said:

    I agree with the way biking recharges your batteries.

    When I first started riding, I was in the middle of a major PBX upgrade that had me putting in 12-hour (minimum) days.

    I’d get home around 11 PM just completely burned out. After a quick bite to eat, I’d hit the road for a 12-mile loop and come back with all the stress drained out of me and ready for a peaceful sleep.

    Before taking up biking, I had a similar project and found myself in the chiro’s office a couple times a week for adjustements and massage.

    Too bad they can’t bottle that.

  4. On June 1st, 2009 Cory said:

    love the patty reference. i hear ya sister. get your therapy wherever you can. writing, biking, whatever it takes!

  5. On June 4th, 2009 spiderleggreen said:

    Sometimes you just have get back up on your bike. Goodluck.

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